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[mood | Somewhat Confuzzled]
[music |Beethoven's Last Night]

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me!"

2. I'll respond by asking you five questions of my choosing.

3. Post the questions and their answers in your journal.

4. Include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else.

5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, ask them five questions. And thus the endless cycle of the meme goes on and on and on and on...



Questions and embedding concept courtesy of Jamie )
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Forgone Occlusion [Feb. 3rd, 2007|11:56 pm]
[mood | determined]
[music |Gone - Switchfoot]

Well, here it is in all it's glory: the final draft of the final story of my creative writing class. It could surely be improved a bit more, but I'm not too concerned with fixing it, really. I may come back to it later, and I might not. I hope you enjoy it.

“Forgone Occlusion”

Sunlight filtering through the tavern windows flickered momentarily as a human form passed by on the outside. A moment later, the door groaned at the pressure of another gritty hand. As it swung to, the ever-present dust on the floor was roused from its easy stupor and swirled about the wooden planks in twisted shafts, furious. One shaft hurled itself at a reclining figure half-hidden in the corner and fell, smitten by outstretched feet. The newcomer lost no time in following the dust, and momentarily stood tall before the slumped man, again blocking his light.
“David,” the tall man spoke. His call was answered by a raised chest followed by a hissing breath. “You’ve been here for quite some time,” the man continued. “It’s not like you.”
A low, gravely voice drifted up from David’s mouth, though he did not look up or open his eyes. “I’m sorry to be a bother to you, but I don’t have any work to take me away from here. As soon as I do, I’ll be gone.”
“I hope you won’t be.” The man shifted uneasily and David cracked an eyelid. The feet before him were wrapped in fine leather, the leather wrapped in dust. Precisely tailored pants fell to the ankles and ran the entire length of the man’s legs with no frayed strands or patches thinned by wear. The pants disappeared into an impressive coat and vest which spoke of high position, though they did not sport the gilded ornaments favored by nobility. David’s eye wandered over the ensemble and had nearly retired from its work when a slight glint of metal shone out from beneath the vest. David’s brow arched slightly, but not enough to be noticed. It was the badge of an elected official, one ornament that meant more than all the silver and gems of an aristocrat. As his eye again drew its blinds, David assembled the information and grinned.
“I’m a beaten man,” he drawled. “I’m covered in dirt, flies, and things I won’t say. But that’s not why people avoid me. What possible use could the law have for someone like me?”
“The law doesn’t consider you a criminal, even if everyone else does. You may have been a vigilante before, but I’m interested in your skill. I may have been chosen by the people to protect them, but I can’t do everything they need me to. Your success tells me that you are the one they need in this situation.”
David growled, “My success is what makes them hate me.” The lawman began to respond, but David cut him short. “What situation?”
The lawman gathered himself up and squared his shoulders to David. “Do you mean to say that you will help? It will do me no good to discuss the matter if you are already set against it.”
“Let’s just say I do not return the people’s sentiments to them.”
The lawman set his jaw and nodded shortly. “I hoped so. Perhaps you would join me in my quarters.”
David heaved himself out of his chair and slowly raised his head from his chest. When his eyes opened they were already fixed on the doors. He made for the exit and reached behind him to straighten his earthen coat. As it fell, the lawman caught a momentary glimpse of black gunmetal. Two bores shone darkly across the small of David’s back, then disappeared behind the pale curtain of his coat.
The lawman smiled to himself and matched David’s strides. “You won’t be alone,” he said.
“That’s too bad.”
“You may think differently soon enough.”
“Don’t suppose you’ll have a drink for my horse.”
“That, and a stronger one for you, if you want.”
“Depends on the situation.”

David rested his shoulder on the doorframe, barely within the room. The trappings were lavish – more so than any he had seen before. The warping boards of the original floor were obscured by bright rugs immaculately placed to accentuate the shape of the room. The walls were heavily adorned with trophies taken from all manner of four-legged creatures, though not a single hunter’s weapon was to be seen. Three gigantic armchairs delineated the central court of the room, and a neatly carved and finished table stood in the center, holding the room together. In all the furnishings, precious metals glinted, but the true wonder was in the colors. Vibrant greens, blues, and purples wrapped about the room. Their glow was in stark contrast with the dull earth tones that dominated the land and town around them. The auspicious surroundings triggered David to thinking, and he quickly realized why the officials of this town would be suspicious of anyone who lived in such wealth.
David declined the offer of a seat, though the others had not. Katrina already reclined in one of the chairs, settling with an ease that was unnerving to David. Beneath her carved eyebrows, her eyes absorbed the scene before her with an unnatural mix of caring and detachment. Gerald hesitated a moment before seating himself, putting on an air of comfort and fixing his eyes on the host. Those eyes browsed quickly over every detail of the man before him from behind smoke-tinted glasses. The host himself was middle-aged, with jet black hair combed over tracts of his scalp which threatened to bald at any time. His dress fit well with his home. Silver chains swing from pocket to pocket, and his black suit was adorned with all manner of brightly colored gems and trinkets. He was pouring drinks as his guests settled themselves. The etched glasses he poured into were no more hushed than any of their surroundings. Gerald accepted the first glass, but Katrina and David declined to drink. The host shrugged and downed one of the drinks himself, then refilled the glass and capped the bottle. Once the liquid was sitting calmly in his stomach, he spoke.
“I’m grateful to have visitors, even if it is an official matter. I don’t see many faces at my door.”
Gerald grinned and candidly cut in. “That’s the way it is when you’re not well liked.”
The host cracked a brief smile. “So it is. But why have you come and changed that? How is it that I concern the keepers of order, and why do they no come themselves?”
“Because the people are the ones concerned, Michael,” Katrina answered. Her voice was soft, unassuming. “As some of them, we are here to find out why you’ve been stirring things up.”
“But you were sent by the deputy. You didn’t come of your own accord. If I were a suspicious man, I would think you were sent to spy on me.” Michael paused and tilted his head as an idea crossed his mind. “But if they sent you to spy on me, surely you would have come – alone.” He smiled a self-assured smile. Katrina sat still, unmoved by the indictment. Seeing this, Michael drew himself up and glazed over the topic. “So, since you are not here for dishonest reasons, tell me your concerns.”
Katrina spoke again in the same even tone. “You have been making comments to folk around here that have been putting them on edge. We simply want to know why you are saying these things.”
“People are always disturbed by the truth,” Michael stated, gazing out a window as commoners passed by. “They don’t like to hear of their own vice, and the trouble it will bring them.” He turned and focused directly on his questioner. “The people of this town are consumed by their own distrust and malice for others. I’m sure you three have already felt it, but soon every one of them will feel the sting of their neighbor’s misguided wrath.”
“You don’t give them the credit they deserve,” Gerald said. “A town like this is built on cooperation. The land demands it. They will not risk the future of their children over petty squabbles.”
“Won’t they? You’re a man well acquainted with risks. You know that there comes a time to gamble everything you have for your own goals.”
“I think this is a little different. I don’t gamble with people’s lives.”
“No, but you’ve never had a reason to.” Michael shifted his eyes to the ceiling. “Have you ever heard of a place called Salem?”
David’s ears caught the name and his nerves snapped to attention, his eyes narrowing. Michael did not notice David’s slight movements, and went on, “No I don’t suppose you’ve been far enough east to hear of that ill-fated town. The people there were thrown into a bloodthirsty frenzy because of their own selfish convictions, and they would spare nothing, not blood or life. All it takes is a small disturbance. A dream, a nightmare, and these people will also be at the throats of their fellow men. I’m just a mirror for these people. I tell them of themselves, and they don’t like it. I will not strike them, if that is your concern. But they will strike at each other soon enough.”
“You are certain of this?” Katrina asked.
“Quite so.”
“And you will do nothing?”
“I will not meddle in their affairs. But when they begin to accuse each other, this house will be safe. I will hide them from their accusers if they seek my help.”
The soft tones of conversation were broken by the sharp percussion of the outer door latching itself. The three turned to find David’s place empty. Gerald and Katrina rose, and started toward the door.
“I’m afraid we need to leave,” Gerald called over his shoulder. “Sorry it has to be in such a hurry.”
“It’s quite alright,” Michael returned. “Would you care for a drink for the road?” He extended a mug brimming with golden liquid and froth, but the two continued on.
“I’m afraid not,” Katrina answered. “It’s bad for business.” She through a parting smile and stepped through the door, latching it behind her.
Outside, they hastened to David who was readying his horse.
“Now that we’re here, might you explain why we’re cutting the conversation short?” Gerald demanded.
“We’ve heard enough,” David replied.
“And just where are you going?” Katrina added, her frustration showing for the first time.
“Looking for trouble.”
“And what will you do when you find it?”
“Lead it back to Michael.”

The noon sun had chased most life out of the open stretches when David led the group through winding avenues that struck out beyond the huddled buildings of the town’s heart. An uncomfortable silence had overtaken the companions, but it was not to last for long.
“Michael was holding something back, but I’m not sure what,” Katrina offered. Her tone was quiet, pensive.
“Well, it sure wasn’t his bile,” Gerald grunted.
Katrina looked up from where her feet swung beside the hindquarters of Gerald’s horse. A smile was sneaking across her face, but Gerald did not see it. His eyes were fixed on the hypnotic bobbing of the tail in front of him.
“He’s a poor bluffer, anyway,” he added. “He’s not the kindly messenger he would like us to think.”
“But what can we do?” Katrina sighed. “The deputy asked us to end any designs he’s developing, but all we’ve managed to do is find out that the designs are there.”
“But still beyond or reach,” Gerald finished the thought. He leaned forward and rested his forearms on his saddle-horn. “You don’t have to bluff if you’re holding all the cards.”
“Sounds like we don’t know where to go from here”
“But we’re going, all the same.”
“I wonder what’s eating him.”
David answered Katrina’s whispered inquiry without turning. “I got tired of looking at leaves and fruit.”
Gerald and Katrina exchanged puzzled glances.
“Sometimes you have to dig deeper,” David droned. “I’m looking for the root of his evil.”
It was not long before David found what he was looking for. He reigned in his horse beside a small plot of land, covered in stalks of wheat. The harvest had begun weeks before for the rest of the farmers, but these plants had not been touched. Gerald’s horse stopped quickly, barely avoiding collision with David’s. It sputtered in its annoyance, then followed David’s gaze out over the lilting pods.
Katrina slipped from her seat and walked to the edge of the field. “He won’t be earning much from this field,” she concluded. “It’s a tiny patch, and it will be past due in the next few days.
“Something tells me he doesn’t make a habit of selling any of his produce,” David said as he passed her, leading his horse straight into the sea of wheat.
Katrina dropped her eyes and thought. “No, he’s never bought or sold anything in town. Nothing I’ve known about.”
“I don’t think he earns his money anywhere around here, but I do think he spends it right where we’re standing.” The words had barely passed between them when David’s head snapped to his right. He dropped his reigns and gave a quick knock against his saddle blankets with his left hand. The blankets hissed as a rifle dropped from between their folds. David caught the stock on the toe of his boot and tilted the weapon towards him. With a flick of his ankle, he sent the bore straight up in the air, and within a second the rifle was seated snugly against his shoulder, the barrel looking directly down the gullet of another rifle. A short man crouched silently among the wheat stalks, his head just below their peaks. Everything about him was calm and quiet, but his eyes revealed consternation – his prey was more dangerous than he had supposed. David’s eyes had frozen over, and he stared at the stalker with unearthly malice.
“What in Tarnation!” Gerald’s voice boomed as he hastened along the path cut by David’s horse. The assailant looked to Gerald for a moment, and before he could look back, David had lunged and pressed his rifle’s bore against his opponent’s. He wrapped the threatening weapon, throwing its angle down and to the side. Startled, the stalker clenched his hands, and man-made thunder swarmed through the field. His rifle jumped off of his shoulder, and he jolted backward, falling heavily from his precarious stance. His next moment of consciousness found an angry muzzle inches from his face and an angrier demand impinging on his ears.
"Get up."
The man grappled with his shaking limbs and managed to right himself.
"I take it you were planning to escort us somewhere."
No answer was apparent.
"I suggest you take us there anyway."
Still, there was no answer.
"Or we could stand here all day and wait until you're missed."
That one triggered something in the man. Imagined consequences widened his eyes and he turned without a word.
Four figures soon stood before a barn. The doors stood open, framing a black rectangle of the interior. David's attacker was the first into the dim chamber. David followed close behind, pausing momentarily to let his eyes adjust. His ears caught the clicking of metal and glass in a far corner before his eyes were ready. Holding his head in the direction of the noise, he waited. An image quickly coalesced in his eyes. Michael stood in the corner, a series of glasses holding clear liquids in front of him.
The assailant's voice broke the silence. "Uh, sir, I've brought the cow-hand."
Michael stood straighter. He reached into the corner and pulled a silver-headed cane to his side. He spun on his heels to face the new arrivals, and as he did, a smile fell precipitously from his face. This was not the scene he had envisioned.
David shifted his rifle's aim to rest on Michael's chest and nodded curtly. "Thanks for making yourself so easy to find, and so easy to accuse. Maybe you will be more complete in your story now that you've been truly suspicious."
"I've told you all there is to tell," Michael snarled. "This place is marked. Everyone in this town will die, starting with you!" Michael gave his cane a sharp shake and the shaft fell away, revealing cold metal. He raised the weapon and raced toward David, but a sharp command from the rifle ended his advance. His body collapsed instantly to the ground, his sword falling powerless beside him.
David remained unmoved, but Katrina and Gerald were visibly shaken. The sudden beginning and end of conflict had overwhelmed them. Gerald shook himself of the shock first, and managed a weak comment. "So much for arrogance."
David started. Familiar sounds reached him, and he leapt aside instinctively. The ground at his feet shot into the air as another shot reverberated. He dropped his unwieldy rifle and reached behind his back, procuring one of his handguns while dashing across the floor of the barn. He scanned his surroundings as he moved, and in a moment caught sight of his attacker, who ran along a ledge that circled the barn. He swung his rifle wildly, trying to steady it, but failing. David's handgun spoke, and the man stumbled, toppling over the ledge. His body lashed the ground violently. He lay still initially, then began to struggle against his unresponsive limbs. His struggle came to an abrupt end.
David sighed and replaced his revolver. He turned to an impressed grin on Gerald's face. Katrina set her jaw and advanced toward the prone strangers. Gerald followed her with his eyes. His expression changed to one of uncomfortable surprise.
"Whoa, give the dead some respect!"
Katrina shook off the criticism. "I'll just say his last invitation was an open one." She rose from crouching over the still body. When she returned to the others she carried a small pouch. Opening it, she poured out a pile of gray powder. “This is a strange thing to hide so carefully,” she mused.
David walked over to her, a grave expression hardening his face. He pinched a portion of the dust and rubbed it between his fingers. It was extremely fine – almost fluid. He turned quickly on a heel and hastened out of the barn. As he moved, he muttered “mold” under his breath. The others exchanged questioning looks, then hurried after David.
He stopped at the nearest shoots of grain and plucked a shaft. He removed the grains and squeezed one in his fingers. The husk crumbled, revealing a hollow center, eaten out by mold. The husk fragments lay in a gray cloud of spores.
David clenched his teeth. “He’s tainted the crops. That’s why he never harvested his own.”
“I guess that explains why his fields are so small,” Katrina added. “But what will it do? Is it poison?”
Gerald stepped in. “I doubt it. That would be too obvious. He wanted to be seen as a savior. If people were poisoned, it wouldn’t help his case.”
“Then what?” Katrina puzzled.
“You might be surprised at the things people will do when they grow tired of everyday life,” Gerald continued. “Some things can play tricks on a person’s mind, without being fatal.”
Katrina’s eyes widened. “He said they only needed a push to put them over the edge –“
“I think this is more than a friendly nudge,” David grunted. “How long ago did the town harvest? Has this year’s grain been used yet?”
“Not yet,” Gerald answered. “But it will be soon.”
“Then we’d better hurry back.”

When the three reached the outlying building of the town, they discovered that they had been missed. The sinking afternoon sun reflected off of a crowd of glistening faces and bodies streaked with sweat. A tall man stepped out from the front of the crowd as the horses approached.
“Well, if this isn’t the finest collection of ne’er-do-goods I’ve ever seen! What have you been about? Somehow I think shooting pea cans is too tame for the likes of you three.”
Katrina slipped from the back of Gerald’s horse in a huff, and Gerald rapidly dismounted after her.
“We’ve only done what none of the rest of you had the courage to do!” She retorted. “You’ve all sat around and set yourselves up for a fall! At least we did something about it!”
Gerald added to the fray. “You all have to avoid this year’s crop! It’s tainted!”
The tall man scoffed at them. “You have blood on your conscience, and now you want us to starve? Maybe we’ll let you starve instead – in a cell!”
As if on cue, clumps of people surged out of the crowd and confined Gerald and Katrina, while others started to run toward David. Two flashes zipped through the air, and the crowd paused as David leveled two rifles at the front of the charge.
“Wait just a minute,” he mandated. “What we’ve done, we’ve done on orders from your own deputy sheriff. We’ve done nothing wrong.”
A voice raised out of the middle of the swarm. “Nothing wrong! What audacity! We know your past, cow herder. And we know theirs, too. We’ve had a little talk with our deputy, and we don’t think he’s representing us very well. We’ll do what we find to be right, now. Just how many more deaths are you willing to cause?”
As the speech had been droning on, several of the people had taken out their own firearms, and David found himself looking down dozens of muzzles at once.
“Only one,” he said to himself. His hands released their grips, but the rifles had not even touched the ground before the first bullets ripped through his heart.

The townsfolk wasted no time reaching their verdict, and even less in erecting a twin gallows. They were all of a single mind, and the sun was still glistening on the horizon when Gerald and Katrina stood on the town’s newest structure. Katrina looked across at Gerald, who had been starting at the boards beneath his feet.
“Maybe they’ll realize what’s happening in time. Maybe they’ll remember our warnings.”
Gerald answered by raising up his head and giving her a quiet, knowing look through his glasses. She knew what he meant, and echoed it to herself.
“No, they will be killed.”
She cast her eyes to the sun, and her last vision was of a great dust devil climbing high above the town, consuming the sphere of light.

The arid landscape was soon marked only by rubble and debris. Without anyone to keep it, the town had crumbled and sank into the waiting soil. Sparse planks still broke the surface, charred and misshapen by rage. Madness had descended, and dragged the people with it, until finally the last of their earthly works slipped beneath the surface, down to the earthen sepulcher.
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Is it a song, or is it... [Sep. 22nd, 2006|10:26 pm]
Actually, it's creative writing. However, my three short stories so far have been named after songs, so I just might see if I can keep that up. Anyway, I'm going to use this entry to post my works for my creative writing class, and I'll throw in the one I wrote before the class because it fits with the song theme. I'm assuming that I'll be allowed to edit this entry as much as I want, so I'll just tack on new stories as I write them.




"World With Me"
--I wrote this one several months ago, so there was no assignment, no particular goal. I had an idea for a character that didn't fit into any of my longer works, so I wrote a short story to give her a home. The "challenge" of this piece is to figure out just what is unusual about her...


Outside of Mollweide’s coffee house the usual bowl of cigarette smoke hovered in the air. About a dozen people loitered about the door, drawing on their preferred brand in long draughts, and occasionally one would grind the browned stub into an ash tray and enter the star-shaped building. Groups of friends accounted for most of them, but one man burned his incense alone before he pushed through the wall of smoke to the door, swerving slightly as the cumulative effect of the drugs he had taken toyed with his vision. He coughed and yanked his slothful form through the double doors.

Inside, the clean air cleansed his lungs as best it could, and his mind began to clear. He took a few cautious steps inside and, assured of his ability, began his search. The agents coursing through his veins promised the courage he usually lacked, and he congratulated himself on maintaining his balance despite the combined stimulants. He felt like he was floating through the clumps of people, not quite pushed, not quite shoved, until the crowd began to thin. The thinning had escaped him the first time he passed through it a year ago, and he suspected that none of the other patrons had ever noticed the air about one woman, though it caused them all to veer away, forming a globe of space around her. There she sat, slowly, thoughtfully draining away a glass of cider. Occasionally a smile would flash across her face, but they were short lived, and often separated by a darkening of her countenance.

The man slapped his wrists, reminding himself of the drugs, and plunged into the spacious circle, hastily plopping down in the chair opposite the woman. Her roaming eyes slid quietly toward him, alighting on his face in an unfocused gazed. He was used to her curious brand of greeting; she never focused on anything.

“Just got out of class,” he said, looking down to fiddle with his watch. “The old man didn’t want to give up today.”

The woman’s gaze began to drift around him again, and he could sense that she knew his professor had not truly kept him late. He shifted his weight and called a nearby waiter. This employee was just as reluctant to pierce the sphere around the table, but his duties compelled him. The college man ordered a drink – with extra shots of any caffeine-rich filler available – and turned back to the woman, keeping the waiter in place with an upheld hand.

“Care for a pick-me-up, Teryn?” he asked innocuously, playfully.

Teryn turned her eyes back to the man, a sadness in them so deep that he had never steeled himself it its effect. He swallowed nervously and quickly diverted his gaze back to the waiter.

“Just another cider for the lady,” he said, his voice barely rising above the hum of pleasant conversations.

When the waiter had passed out of earshot, the man pulled a silver case from his pocket and procured a tablet, marketed as the ultimate energy supplement. The stimulants still flowed, and his heedless courage returned. He offered a tablet to Teryn, arching his eyebrows in silent inquisition. The sadness that hung in the air turned to disappointment, and she turned her head to look at the murals of distant shores that encircled each room of the establishment.

The man shrugged to himself and popped the pill. It came to rest on the back of his tongue and he was about to swallow when his consciousness caught upon the earring that swung slowly from Teryn’s ear. The ornament had always given him pause. The translucent stones were the only jewelry she ever wore, or probably owned, and he couldn’t shake the feeling that they had a stronger bond to her than was apparent. They were a surprising deep blue, exploding from beneath her red hair like ocean waves flowing ever downward. Observed more closely, their frosted patterns could be discerned, curving about a small spherical shell like islands and continents.

The man traced the elusive patterns for a moment, then remembered the tablet and swallowed it quickly. Silence pervaded the air between the pair until the waiter returned with the desired drinks. The man drank deep, imagining that he could feel the chemicals swirling out of his stomach and into his blood. He set the cup down and again attempted to spark conversation.

“Why not try some of this even once? You never touch something as simple as caffeine, and I don’t see why.” Before she answered, he knew what she would say. She would tell him how many people had died of drug overdoses that month. It irked him that while he was the one going to college and learning a trade, she was the one who could pull numbers out of the ether at her desire. The numbers were statistically sound, however. He had checked on them, and she never erred. Today he would try a different approach. Allowing her to finish, he rejoined, “but that’s not a reason for you.”

She looked to him, through him for a long minute before she replied. “I won’t sacrifice my natural consciousness.” She took a drink of the cider, vindicated.

The man knew he would have to ask another question. That was the only way to elicit a response from Teryn. He swallowed more of his drink as he pondered what to say. He would not broach the question that was burning in his mind. He would save it for the last. A thought came to him, and he set his drink down quickly, spilling
some of the dark liquid.

“I’m curious. You are always thinking of other people. You always know what to do. Why don’t you train for a job that will let you help people? Why do you just squeeze by with part time jobs?”

Teryn lowered her drink and stared upward, at nothing. “Somewhere out there is a man bleeding to death in the mangled wreckage of his car. And I can do nothing to help him.”

The man knew that it was very likely that someone was dying in a car wreck somewhere, but he didn’t see why that should stop anyone from working for what good they could cause. He voiced his confusion.

Teryn bored through his eyes again, and this time the sadness that saturated the air was a global one. “He’s going to die.”

The man ground his teeth together in frustration. She could never focus, and it was an impediment to him – an insurmountable impediment. He abandoned the philosophical and embraced simple questions, trying to play off of her singular replies. Another hour passed and the question that had burned in his mind was extinguished. No drug could coerce him to speak it, and he felt his reasons for being there had waned away. A small puddle remained in his cup, but he had no desire to drink it. Rising, he bid Teryn farewell, left a few bills on the table, and struck out into the blind chaos of life. He passed through the crowds inside the coffee house and penetrated the smoky atmosphere beyond.

As he went, Teryn began to draw forms on the table with the spilled coffee. They started small, but she could not keep them that way. Insular blotches became gigantic stains, and before she was finished the glinting surface of the table lay between seven great marks. She stopped as the door closed behind her acquaintance, her eyes staring into nothingness again.

The man hastened away from the shop, striking out into the street. He paused as the ground beneath him began to glow. He was entranced by it. He heard only his own thoughts, and as the source of the light came to him, he looked up, just in time to see the grill of a truck slice through the night air. It hit, and he didn’t even feel it.

Teryn sat alone, her head bent down to the table, and somewhere deep in her eyes a light went out. A moment later another smile shattered the gloom in her features, and then disappeared. The night faded away to nothingness.





"A Revolution to the Origin"
--This is the first short story I wrote for my class. The assignments are generally open-ended. We're given an idea, and we have to run with it, sometimes within certain constraints. This assignment was "the facts are these, but the truth is this." With that inspiration, we could do whatever we wanted. So, on with the story.


With a click and a hum, pale blue settles on the sphere I call my home. I move about, shuffling crystal containers as translucent as I. One drink’s down. I let my coat slide silently down my back to my hooked hands. It finds its place over the curved back of my easy chair. I’m a little less translucent now. Another drink ought to fix that. The crystal makes its rounds again, and I place the glass next to the faucet. An amber ring in its base glares blackly at me against the blue background. I sneer, then turn to the Source. It’s an apt name. It’s the only source I need – of light, of sound, of knowledge. I linger a moment before it, imagining that my reflection returns to me as it did from the older screens. I would see my face and my plain clothes. I would see a man of no more distinction than the wall behind him. At the moment, there’s one thing that is not yet translucent. It’s my mind. I need to wait for the drinks to make their cycle. Ah, there it is. My eyes open again to the true world – the one where the Source does only that, and does not reflect. I speak.

“The facts.”

A short, sharp hum filters out as banks speak to distant shores and find that the answer was within them from the beginning. The iconic female voice of the source begins to reply, with pleasantries equaling my own.

“Darren Sawn. Assault with a deadly weapon, August 3, 2105. Prison time served without incident. First degree murder, June 2, 2117, June 10, 2117, June 24, 2117, July 7, 2117, July 21, 2117, July 29, 2117. Terminated August 3, 2117. Assigned agent: Dennis Ott.”

That was the end of it, as far as the Source – or anyone else, for that matter – is concerned. The ritual is not at its end, however. I speak again.

“The truth.”

A longer hum sounds off this time, brooding.

“No such file.”

Dissatisfied as always, I return to my glass. I fill in the dark “O” and raise the level of the blackened liquid. I drain it, and rinse it before the remaining shadow can spread and form another loop. A clear liquid flows through a clear glass, and a dark fluid runs though a shadow of a man. Satisfied with the glass, if not with the Source, I return it to the cupboard, and staunch the flow of the water. My bed is ten paces away, and I count them as they pass beneath me. I hover above the lavishly cushioned plank and watch my shadow, ringed by the Source’s blue.

“The truth is this. Darren had his reasons - poor reasons, to be sure, but reasons all the same. He was determined. I was better, despite his practice. The truth is that I lost a piece of myself that day. Vindicated I am, but vindication is hollow. Each one I dispatched took more away from me, until I was no more. I am as empty in person now as my coat makes me appear to everyone else. With it on, they see only what is behind me. With it off, I see only what is around me. The ones I save continue on, always moving, always changing. But I return to this spot every night. My glass returns to its place, and my bottle to its station. And I return to my bed. A short respite, and I begin it all again. I arch out into the world, then circle back, and here I am again. I am a zero move.”

I slip between the fibers and they wrap about me in endless spirals. My conscience is clear, as clear and colorless as my humanity.




"Love Hurts"
--The prof introduced this project by taking two desks and placing them with their backs touching and saying that was our assignment. Whatever we could come up with to fit the idea of those chairs. Additionally, it had to be 100% dialoge. Absolutely no description, narration, or anything else apart from speach.

"Don't Start."
"I Have to."
"You don't have to do anything."
"Not for myself, but for him."
"That's what you always say. What is it this time?"
"He lied."
"That's all? Honestly, I've done that, and probably worse. Why do you have to make such a big deal out of it?"
"You know why."
"Of course I do. Because I ask you every time and every time it's the same. You can't spare the rod."
"There are bigger things at stake here."
"Sometimes I wish I had your unflinching certainty."
"Sometimes?"
"Not usually."
"All the better. You don't want it."
"There you go again, bemoaning the things you never change."
"I can't change it."
"Yes, you've made that obvious, and it does nothing for making friends."
"I wish that were my role."
"No, you don't. You have no idea how hard it is to look past yourself and care about a friend, no matter how bad things get."
"I don't?"
"Don't get righteous on me. If I used your methods, I'd chase them all away in a heartbeat."
"Yes, I suppose you would."
"So what makes him different? Is it that he's the one who can't run away?"
"Somebody has to. If I don't, no one will."
"Sure they would. If he pulled the wrong stunt out there, somebody would punish him."
"Yes, but not like this."
"Like what?"
"Look at my hand."
"That's disgusting. Where did those scars come from?"
"Look at the rod."
"Oh."
"Yes."
"I couldn't do it."
"I know."
"And you're going to do it again?"
"Yes."
"Thank you."
"Always."



"Fixing a Fractured Mind"
--The asignment for this one was "putting it back." I think it's pretty self-explainatory, so on with the work.

You won’t make it very far unless you have all of the pieces. If you know where you lost your mind, that is one place you won’t need to look. It is, after all, the nature of a mind to wander. Once that wanderlust is fulfilled, it will tend to return to its typical haunts, so you should begin your search in the places your mind was once at ease. When you have recovered the pieces, the only remaining challenge is putting them back in the right places. The difficultly is that you can’t think about it, because you only think with the portion of you mind that is left to you. The trick is to coax the wayward pieces back into their places by way of pure experience. If one piece helped you to enjoy a particular song, listen to that song – without thinking about it – and the piece will find its proper place – the place it can resonate. Continue to experience, but not to think, until each piece has settled, and the rattling of fragments has ceased. Once your mind is completely silenced, you are free to go out and shatter your mind all over again.
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Life, the Universe, and Anything Part 3 [Jul. 30th, 2006|12:56 am]
[mood | uncomfortable]
[music |The Voyage - Cast in Bronze]

Sometimes I think that I would see more clearly if I plucked out my eyes.



This is somewhat of an obligatory blog, I admit. Still, it's worthwhile. The last few days have been a lot like taking off ski goggles - not those newfangled, polarized ones, but the old-fasioned kind that are just bright pink lenses. When you first put them on, you know that you're losing a lot of definition, but soon enough you adjust to it and forget that you're wearing them. You can still see, so it's okay. Then you take them off, and for a little while the entire world takes on a revolting shade of green. Soon enough it fades, and once again you see all of the things that you were missing. So here I sit, and as the clarity returns, I can see that if I hadn't put on my goggles before getting on the lift, I would never have skied down that slope. I never saw the cusp of the precipice; I only felt the ground drop away beneath my feet. But I broke no bones in the fall, and I have every capability to return and try a new slope. Or perhaps the first slope had a jump that I missed. Yet I learn, and I can not reconcile my new understanding with the idea of returning. I am at the foot of a cliff, and all I can see without my goggles is the glare of the icy face. On the other hand, I no longer trust my goggles. I cannot afford to lose clarity again. Therefore, despite the functional shape that I am in, I can not allow myself to return. What am I to do? I could simply pick up and leave the slopes, but for two impediments. Firstly, the revolting green still lingers and the world outside has no great allure, and secondly, I know that I can not escape the slopes, and should not, even if I could. I feel stranded right now, and there is no visible escape. However, "I know I know I know I know that - Every blade will wither and fade, as the old man dies again. Seasons pass; we're clinging to grass, because we've lost the sky again."

Maybe what I need are simply differently colored goggles. Maybe they make those polarized goggles for the heart.
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Kaboom! [Apr. 8th, 2006|02:57 am]
Ahaha... FIRE! wooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

So the E-Days fireworks were awesome. I considered taking pictures, but I decided I didn't have any pity for those too lazy to come see them. And besides, looking through a viewfinder would have meant a less interesting show for me. The intro was amazing, the finale was awesome. If you care to know more, you'll have to ask me in person. Pixels don't do it justice. Some brave soul ran out on the field and lit the charges that had failed, and they were all set to blow up on the ground, so he didn't get far before the explosion. As a matter of fact... two brave souls did it. We're still not sure what became of the first one, but they needed a second one to finish the job. The moral of the story is: come to the E-Days fireworks, no matter how far you have to travel. They're worth it.

After the fireworks I went to a friend's apartment and watched Narnia. Hyped up gamers are great fun to watch that movie with. Here are some highlights.

"If a bomb already exploded next to your house, it's probably too late to go to the shelter."

"There should be an R rated version."

"He's a Mines student." (after "Perhaps we've been incorrectly labeled.")

"He's a Mines graduate." ("Hence the weeping.")

"Do the books ever actually say what was in the packages?"
"Groceries."
"Because King Soopers has a chain in Narnia."
"King Soopers is everywhere."
"And WalMart."

"She's pretty ugly."
"That's what you get for playing a unisex angel."
"They're going to have a lot of work on their hands to make her a hottie in The Magician's Nephew."
"They'll have to get another actress."
"They'll have to fire their wardrobe too. No one can look hot in THAT."

"It brings a whole new meaning to 'hourglass figure.'"

"/slap!"
"They need a /backhand. There's only so much you can do with /slap."

"She just stonified a butterfly."

"What comes after Winter?"

"They should do a MythBusters on that one." (Sword & iceflow bit)

"Look, it's Colorado weather!"

"They're checking out the epic gear!"

"One of the Centaur is hot."
"Wait, I missed it. Back it up!"

"He gets knighted for holding a sword and having a wolf jump on it. I could probably become a knight in Narnia."

"It's ok, he knows he's respawning in a few hours."

"Numbers don't win battles. Hacks do!"

"Ambidexterity & Improved Two-Weapon Fighting!"

"Frost hax!"

"He's only mostly dead."

"Having 'the magnificent' after your name could go to your head pretty quick."

"Ouch! Server wipe!"

Yeah, life is good.
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Life, the Universe, and Anything Part 2 [Mar. 27th, 2006|05:36 am]
Stopping to Smell the Roses on a Supersonic Flight

It's almost surreal to think that Sonic the Hedgehog has been around for 15 years. Still, it's true, and previews have begun to break for the '06 title. It looks spectacular, but that's not what I'm concerned with at the moment. I've been playing Shadow the Hedgehog for a little while now. With each run though the story, I get pulled further in. This probably won't hold up for all of the 326 possible storylines, but it's a strong indication of what has kept the Sonic frachise so vital for so much time. Because this is the first game in the series that didn't bear Sonic's name, it alerted me to the fact that I should take a step back and look at the big picture. Ironic that thinking about the games is so much like playing them. It's difficult to stop and admire the scenery when you're hurtling though stages built for speed and cunning, but if you ever do put on the brakes for a moment and take it all in, you'll find intriguing detail and an immersive world. Similarly, the progression of the games is breathtaking. Even the earliest games managed to bring something new into each title. So they had a successful mascot on their hands when the first Sonic hit the charts. Where do they go from there? How about adding a seventh emerald and allowing limited immunity to anyone skilled enough to collect all of them? And then what? How about developing a "lock-on" cartrige and developing a combination of games that expands the playable cast to three completely unique characters? The transition into 3D was admittedly rough, but the spiny fiend staged a masterful escape and pulled it all together in the Sonic Adventure titles. From there we've seen Sonic Heroes which challenges the player with the simultaneous control of three characters, and now Shadow the Hedgehog with it's branching storyline that really does change with your actions. A lot of games make that claim, but this one achieves it in spades. Through all of this, they've never once neglected the storyline. It may not be exactly an epic, but it's compelling all the same. To top it off, they've also upheld an admirable legacy in the music. Some of the songs are cheesy, certainly, but I'll take a Sonic soundtrack over 90% of the sountracks out there any day.

So, as the 15th aniversary title gears up to launch, it's time to pull my head back in and get ready for more breakneck speed. It's comforting to know that we aren't headed for a crash so long as Sonic Team is at the controls.

And that's no longer blind fan-boy-ism talking.
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Tuesday was a good day [Sep. 14th, 2005|09:46 pm]
The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy came out on Tuesday. I would have posted as soon as I finished watching it, but life interfered. It goes without saying that the release made Tuesday a very happy day, but there are two things that I'll point out which may not be obvious. First, the previews contained the trailer of The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. Finally, I have a full-size, high-rez version of it to call my own! One day, when the whole series has been released, I'll look back on this preview with fond memories (and I certainly will still be watching the Guide, so I'll still be seing it. Secondly, now that I am able to bring up subtitles, I was able to confirm that "Belgium" is indeed used as a curse word in the movie. Hitchhiker's fans rejoice!

I also watched Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children on Tuesday. It was very exciting, but not exactly a blockbuster. I consoled myself with thoughts of Marvin.
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It's Mysty out there... [Jul. 24th, 2005|11:31 pm]
[mood | content]
[music |Sonic CD soundtrack]

I finished Myst: The Book of Ti'ana a few days ago. This is very likely the most depressing book I have ever read. It's good - quite good - but oh, so depressing. Hmmm, I'm not sure what more there is to say about this. If depressing books are your thing, then The Book of Ti'ana is an absolute must-read. It's not really a spill-over depression, ie it won't make you depressed all day, just when you're actually reading it. If you're interested, the book can stand alone, but for the deepest understanding, you should read The Book of Atrus first. Playing Myst wouldn't hurt, either, but it's far from vital.
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Learning new things every (other) day [Jul. 18th, 2005|05:11 pm]
Apparently the html script for text color doesn't have a set group of acceptable inputs, and can somehow pull a color out of anything you plug in there, such as a screen name. So let's find out what color fate has thrown me in the pot with...

Fwoosh! Zam! Bang! KABLOOEY!

Actually, this color looks familiar... I could make some bold assertions, but I won't. Suffice it to say I saw it somewhere else, but that was on a black background, and so I'm not sure if it was exactly the same color.

Well, enough speculation. I have so many things I should be doing and so much time to fill with procrastination.
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Fit the first [Jul. 12th, 2005|02:36 pm]
Ok, here's the pattern: posts titled "Life, the Universe, and Anything" are musings. "Fits" are rants. So on with the rant.


Batman Begins lacks focus

I went to see Batman Begins a little while ago and decided that it was worth posting about. I will first say that it was not so bad as to make me regret paying to see it. However, it is not nearly as good as I've heard many people make it out to be. I've heard "It's the best Batman movie ever!" a lot, and this simply isn't true. The first one (fist live-action, that is, with Nicholson and Keaton) is considerably better. After careful consideration, I've decided that the best way to sum up the problems in Batman Begins is thus: it has the wrong focus.

First, the obvious: the camera work is very poor at the most important times. The director chose a short lens to emphasize depth-of-field (or at least, if that's not true, the camera work is even worse than I thought). This is not bad in itself; depth-of-field emphsis can do very good things for a movie. However, when the action started to heat up, the actors moved in and out of the range of focus so rapidly that they were rarely in focus. Of course, very often you couldn't see this, because the combatants were obscured by poorly placed foreground objects. The best example of this is the end of Wayne's training in the mountain dojo. It was impossible to see what was going on because most of the shots were filled with the heads of the onlooking ninjas. Ironically, the only time the focus didn't have problems, they threw in the warping effect of the drug. Those shots worked well, but apart from them, the fights were incomprehensible. Additionally, if there was no foreground to obscure the action, the camera adopted the habit of swinging around rapidly whenever a hit was landed (or, in some cases, averted). This is apparently part of the producer's stated goal to "make the audience feel each punch, and make the fights a more serious thing." Unfortunately, feeling the punches is worthless if the camera is moving so quickly that you can't see who landed the punch. Apart from the gems of the drug-scenes, the camera focus counter-acts the useful action in the movie.

Second, the character of Batman. The movie was made to carfully explain the beginnings of Batman, but if ths is really the way Batman got his start, they didn't go far enough, because the Batman at the end was definitely not the Batman we all know and love. As I watched, I had the feeling I was watching James Bond, not Batman. This Batman had an incredible disregard for people, property, and anything else you can put on the screen. Surely, this is to be expected in the early stages. Still, when Wayne clears out his mansion after his party by insulting everyone there, it wasn't anything like the real Bruce Wayne would do, but that's never addressed, nor is there a later scene to demonstrate that he's gained respect for people. We can only asusme that he's still as rude and callous as he was in that scene. Even when the worst of it comes: the highly destructive romp through New York - I mean, Gotham City, Wayne justifies it to Alfred by saying something along the lines of "The only chick a jerk like me could ever hope to land was dying," and the subject was dropped. Bravo.

Third, they focused on entirely the wrong kind of humor. In this case it doesn't matter that it was Batman, any movie would be shamed by the worthless one-liners that plague this movie. One line that almost had merit was Batman's line to the homelss man: "Nice coat," the only problem being that he had explained earlier that he wasn't exactly being generous by giving the man the coat. Then there was the one line that did make me laugh: "Bruce, we have more hotels for you to buy." Apart from those lines all of the jokes were tired and worn out. The worst of it came when they, for the hundredth time in movie history, remade the Men in Black "Don't ever push the red button" scene. I'm getting very tired of those scenes. So then, at the end of the movie, they pulled out the trump card: the line "Didn't you get the memo?" that they set up a whopping 10 minutes previously. Genius.

Fourth, and while this doesn't fit into the focus theme, it's quite important to me, the music was absolutely worthless. Anyone who knows me probably knows that music is the most important department of any multimedia product for me. Batman Begins' music is so bad that I only noticed one building theme that ws played over and over and never went anywhere. A far cry from the amazing musical performances in the original.

Finally, and in my view, most importantly, Gotham City wasn't gothic. I alluded to this earlier, and the tank chase scene is one of the things that make this Gotham more like New York than anything else. They did have one good image, with the steam of all the vaporized water drifted up out of the city, but the rest of the movie lacked any dark, heavy atmosphere. The slums weren't the thing that gave the real Gotham it's dismal feel, but this producer seemed to think so. Gone were the dull, monochrome lights, the always-rising steam and smoke, the grave and foreboding statues. Gotham city is traditionally as responsible for the mood of Batman stories as his costume or wealth, but this movie decides that what people really want is another New York. Strike Five.

There is one piece of good news. The villain was done perfectly. By "the" villain I refer to Scarecrow, not the other one (who shall remained unnamed for thos who haven't seen it yet). With the combination of the drug effect and a brilliant actor, this villain lives up to the standards of Batman. He's better than most of the past movie villains, save Nicholson as the Joker. The story of his villainy is also done well, and it incorporates the crime-lord nature of Gotham. They ignore the fact that a microwave gun that could vaporize water through metal pipes would also kill everyone flat-out, but the concept was good.

So there it is. Batman Begins is worth a watch, but it's not as great as it's been made out to be, and you won't see it in my collection when it comes out on DVD.
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Life, the Universe, and Anything Part 1 [Jun. 29th, 2005|01:29 pm]
The first of my promised musings.

There are probably quite a lot of things in life that nothing can ever truly prepare you for. Two of these things happened to me in the space of three days: capsizing on a white-water rafting trip, and seeing your closest cousin in a bridal dress. They were, in fact, related; the rafting trip was part of my cousin's fiance's bachelor party (as he said, it was about as memorable as he wanted it to be). What I came away with is this: neither event was really quite as big of a deal as it's cracked up to be. True enough that the rafting accident did get adrenaline in my system, which is rare, but the memory of is has already faded to near-obscurity. For the detail-oriented, here's the complete story.

We were running a heavy raft (maximum number of people, and all of them heavy [except me, of course]), and the river (Clear Creek near Idaho Springs, for those who know) was at high water due to torrential rains the preceeding three days. We approached what the guide said was the hardest rapid on the course - later explained to usually be a grade 3, but due to the high water was a 4+ - and the guide said we had to hit it exactly right since we were running heavy. Somoene asked "what if we don't," and the reply was "We're toast." Gathering from what people said afterward, I may have been the only person who actually took it seriously. That's my pessimistic side for you. Anyway, we hit it, not exactly right, and after a second of not moving (surfing), we experienced what the guide described as the fastest flip she'd ever been on. I was in the back on the side that went down, so I didn't have the luxury that others had of knowing what was going on. One moment I was sitting on the raft and the next moment I was underwater. As I explained earlier, I was actually expecting this, so I just held my breath and waited. Other people have harrowing stories of coming up under the raft (or under other people), but by the time the sinkhole spat me out of its own accord, the raft and other people were gone. I had hoped to get a breath soon after first surfacing, but I still had to ride out the remainder of the rapid, and that's when a bit of panic set in. Truth be told, I could have held my breath a little while longer if I had needed to, but I was quite happy when the waves stopped and I could breathe. Then the most unfortunate thing happened. Someone on shore threw a rope, without first thinking to wrap it around something. Of all my memories, that rope is about he only thing I lucidly saw. Anyway, a lot of us grabbed onto it, and that was, needless to say, more than one person could handle. Unfortunately, we didn't know the guy had let go of the rope, so we all lost valuable time thinking that the rope was actually going to do something. Eventually we realized the truth of the matter (the frantic shouts of "get out!" from the other rafts might have had something to do with it), so we swam over to the bank. I came out a comfortable distance above the next set of rapids (which were the reason for the frantic yells), but two people were less lucky. One of them grabbed the absolute last rock before the rapids, and the lower half of his body was in them, so he couldn't pull himself out. I was able to walk over to him (I found out later that the others couldn't even stand after getting out), but if anyone knows me they probably know that I didn't stand any more chance of pulling him out than he did. Eventually, another guide reached him and pulled him out. The other unlucky one (my uncle and father of the bride) ended up taking half of the second set of rapids before another raft caught up to him and pulled him out. He suffered a shattered finger and serious bruises on his legs and feet. Thankfully, that was the worst of it. Most other people had some bruises and scratches, and I came out unscathed (I don't assume to know why). Perhaps this is the reason that, in the words of my mom, "to hear [my uncle] tell it, they were all lucky to be alive, but to hear [me] tell it, it was fun." I'm not sure I'd characterize it as fun, but it was an experience I'm not unhappy to have had. Everyone else was much more shaken up than me, and again, I don't know exactly why I didn't mind so much.

So two days later, I'm all dressed up in by best clothes - another incredible rarity, and I will never wear a suit jacket if I can help it - and being rather amused by the panic scene in the basement of the church. Amid the chaos caused by shouts of "can I come out now?" from both the bride and the groom (they can't be seeing each other before the wedding, of course), the women somehow managed to make the men's bathroom their official changing room and set three furious looking guards at the door (what right did those men think they had to that room anyway?). So then it happened. My cousin come out all done up for the main event. Now, if it had been her sister, I wouldn't really have cared a pinch. But this is my closest cousin - the one that would go and get caked in mud with me and drive our parents nuts. The one I conspired with to start card games of "War" with right when we knew that one of our families was getting ready to leave. I admit that at that moment something stirred behind the locked and bolted door inside me that says "Emotions: do not touch." And here's the theme for the post: even this didn't really live up to its reputation, either. She wasn't exactly larger than life, and after all, I knew that in about a week everything would be back to the status quo, and so this memory, too, begins to fade away. Of course, the behind the scenes part I played in the ceremony gave me a rather unflattering look at the whole thing. I had to try to usher in the guests that arrived a little early, while people were still taking pictures and running around the sanctuary like headless fowl. My ushering duties also caused me to miss the procession, but I'm not upset about that, really. I made it in time for the vows, which I could rant about, but this is one sacred cow I have some respect for, so I won't. On the humorous side of things, as my dad correctly pointed out, the wedding seemed more of a D'Evelyn reunion than anything else. If you discout the (very large) immediate family, probably more than half of the guests were from the classes of '03 and '04, and one guy even came from '05. He gets around. If you again discount the immediate family playing music for it, the only other musicin was from D'Evelyn. It was all a little strange, mostly because two or three of the cousins in my family are four or five years older than I and my closest cousin are, yet she was the first in our generation to get married. I guess I'd better prepare myself, pretty soon a torrent of weddings will start, and they'll last quite a while since the people in my generation are spread over the ages from 5 to 25, without much in the way of gaps.

So now I go about my normal life, quite thankful that I don't suffer from trauma, and curiously awaiting my cousin's return from her honeymoon to see she's as disillusioned as I. And here's the moral of the stories as close as I can figure: "If you're me, you can ride the rapids of Clear Creek and of Life without minding the disturbances all that much." Yeah, I know that's not very helpful. If I come up with something more general I'll let you know. (for the moment, I think it could have something to do with my inclination towards writing, and my imagination that can come up with situations much worse and impactful than those above. I'll consider this more later.)
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"Tagged". Yup. [Jun. 15th, 2005|04:51 pm]
List 5 reasons why you are a dork. And make them good reasons. Justify them. Explain them. Be loud and proud about how big of a dork you are! Then pick the 5 biggest dorks you know and have them do the meme.

ok. Here we go, and don't bother fastening your seatbelts. I'll be taking those away shortly.

1. I suppose I should start with the standard dork/nerd/geek boiler-plate. I go nutty over certain fictions. It's true. D'ni (of Myst fame), Skies of Arcadia, Phantasy Star, The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Starsiege, Lord of the Rings, Narnia... need I continue? I don't have the distinguishment of knowing Elvish, but I think it's fair to say I've covered the basics of that pillar by learing the D'ni numeral system (base-five for the win). I've probably already talked everyone silly about SoA, so I'll avoid it for now (even now it calls to me, from its appointed place, resting beneath my monitor. The chams, the chams!). I've spent an ammount of money even I shy from mentioning so that I may adorn a wall with a gold-foil map of Middle Earth. I think I have fulfilled my requirements for this point, and then some.

2. I am more interested in the past than the present. I shouldn't think that this would be so unusual, but everywhere I look there are people perfectly oblivious to the treasure trove that is the past. Of course, I make a distinction between the past and history. History is boring. The past is the driving force behind the history. The past is the elaborate backdrop that lends excitement. The material proof of this is no farther than an upward glance from my monitor, where a claymore hangs solemnly on my wall. My hobbies show it too. Firearms are all well and good - I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy my annual trip to shoot-fest, NM - yet I find myself much more enthralled in the pursuit of acher and swordsman skills. There's something about it, a lure I can't resist. It's the noble traditoins, the quiet harboring of ability, and I'll leave it at that.

3. I want to never need to leave the wonderous world of fiction for that horrible thing they call a "job." Simply put, if I can sustain myself on creativity, I will. No question about it. If I could sit at home, reading and writing forever, I'd be content. Happy. Exuberant. Not that I think a non-dork wouldn't be happy to leave their job behind, I think that they would quickly tire of thinking up new stories, new images. It seems that enjoying that kind of creation is rather unique. Not only do I enjoy it, it's the only thing that I can do, most of the time. I'm always thinking about what might be, if only I put my mind to it. Of course, my mind is also quite happy to sit back and enjoy the picture-show, so actually doing anything about it is still somewhat difficult. Still, I doubt it's as difficult as holding down a *shudder* "career."

4. I enjoy trying to find an outer image for my inner self. This was complicated early on as a personality quiz (that could be a reason for this list all its own) indicated that my "super-power" is invisibility. A challenge is always good, of course, and I've reveled in the pursuit ever since. Now we understand why my favorite genre of game is RPG, and why my school notes are filled with the only things I'm capable of drawing: runes (and the occasional impressionist doodle). It's the same quest that motivated the drawing and scanning of my happy - or not so happy, as Maugrim would put it - icon for this journal. Originally inspired by SoA, of course. It has a lot to say.

5. Finally, it makes other people think I'm odd and is wonderfully freeing. Once you get past the common hang-ups of dork-dom, you see its benefits. It's one catagory that doesn't impose expectations or blanket-assumptions upon you. Certainly, to the uninitiated, or those who don't really get into it, it seems pretty uniform, but we all know that's not true. We are, perhaps, the only group that DOESN'T have a uniform. Sports-nuts have uniforms. Businessmen have uniforms. Even non-conformists have uniforms. After all, the only thing a non-conformist hates more than a conformist is another non-conformist who doesn't conform to the generally accepted standard of non-conformity. That's a senior quote from someone in my class, though I regrettably forget who at the moment. It's the best place to be. It's home.

6. I listen to remixed videogame music. For that matter, I listen to un-remixed video game music. I rest my case.

I might mention here that the five dorkietst people I know have either already done this or would never see it. Of course, if someone does see it, they should consider themself "tagged."
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The Buy-Out [Jun. 13th, 2005|04:21 pm]
[mood | ecstatic]
[music |Mechwarrior 2 Soundtrack]

I promise this won't be ENTIRELY unoriginal. But to Begin with, a quiz.

01. Reply and I will write something I like about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal or celebrity you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.



Now for the original part, I must express my excitement over the newly released E3 footage for Phantasy Star Universe. I feel like they didn't showcase many different combat styles, but the multiple planet setup and single-player portion has me hopeful of a new game to truly advance the original series. Let the waiting begin!

(Side note: I just realized this is probably the only chain-letter style ploy that I've seen in years. These kinds of quizzes have been around for a while, but besides them, it seems the chain-trend is dead. Intersting...)
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What, this is only Post #3? [Apr. 13th, 2005|11:19 pm]
Well, for what it's worth...

Fall '05 )
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The Schedule [Aug. 23rd, 2004|01:33 pm]
Mines Fall 04 )
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Christening [May. 26th, 2004|01:47 am]
I do not expect that this will come into a great amount of use, but here it is. If I feel so moved I will write down some of my stranger musings here - those which don't make into civil conversations or my writings. I will most likely post some rants as well, whenever I become particularly perturbed by one thing or another. Considering the strange material which is intended for this place, I hereby christen it "The Kink in the Wind and the Way."

*breaks champagne bottle*

*drinks*

Awww, who switched the real stuff for this sparkling white grape juice?
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